• Coming Home to Myself

    On creative time, quiet growth, boundaries, and learning to trust the life that unfolds without force There was a time when I was enthusiastic about almost everything.Art, literature, friends, love, sex — life.It was all part of my everyday living. I used to write daily, for the blog or in my personal diary. Not to…


  • Throw the stone, don’t throw yourself with it.

    Become comfortable with this uncomfortableness. Do we choose our ideologies?We live them, so it feels like we do.But did we ever choose them consciously? In school, I was idealistic.I respected unconditionally.I was unapologetically patriotic. Our story becomes our normality.What we live becomes normal. For a child who is well provided, comfort is normal.For a child…


  • You Need to Lose Your Mind to Find Reality

    When silence starts to see for you I am not married.I never attended college.I have never had a job. I have lived my life unconventionally. This unsettles many of my relatives and friends.Eyebrows rise when I say I am not going to get married.One almost leapt off my forehead when I added,“I am not a…


  • I Live in a Collapsing Tower

    What Remains When Science, Belief, and Meaning Dissolve I live in a tower that is constantly collapsing.Life has been nothing but a series of failures if you look at it in a conventional sense.From the constant chaos and turmoil of life’s events, many patterns emerge.Nature is physics — particles interacting with each other.That is the…


  • When “Not Scientific” Stops Working

    How the mind crowned itself king — and why its exhaustion may be the doorway to the next human evolution “But it is not scientific.”In many intellectual circles, this sentence is enough to win an argument.A wild card. A full stop. Humanity now lives inside the realm of science. It is our badge of modernism…


  • The Meaning of Life Is Not What You Think — It Is What You Dare to Discover

    From Borrowed Answers to Intimate Truth My life is surrounded by definitions.It is human nature to sum up everything into something familiar — something that can be labelled.I don’t live in a box, yet society wants to put me in one.Some known lenses to see through. Some reference point to gaze at and understand. Ahh,…


  • Did You Sleep Well? Your Life Depends on It.

    Rituals Before Inspiration When you are asleep, the mind explodes helplessly.The gates are resting, and the boundaries are blurred between real and unreal.Some nights are insightful dreams; some are nightmares.Nonetheless, the day you start largely depends on how you slept the previous night. Studies from scholars like Freud suggest that a dream is an unfulfilled…


  • What Does It Mean to Live—and What Does It Mean to Be Alive?

    On honesty, privacy, and the quiet difference between surviving and being I wake up at three every morning to write these blogs.I am awake and aware while my world is still sleeping. Quietly. And then life begins—at a familiar rhythm of roles, responsibilities, and identities.I make sure I am done writing before sunrise. Before accumulated…


  • I opened the sketchbook she gave me as a gift, and it read..

    Resolution of energies that lingered longer than they should have I was brought into the spiritual realm by a sudden awakening in 2017.Before that, spiritual reading was a tiny part of my life. After it, it became the soul of what I read and what I expressed. My awakening was too young and fragile. It…


  • On Mourning What Cannot Be Kept, The Grief That Arrived Before the Loss

    Trees, family, and the quiet work of letting go This house was built 25 years ago, and the year we moved in, I found a mango tree near the house.I shifted it to the vacant plot in front of the house, and our home was complete.It found a garden. Years went by, and the garden…